Friendships. Relationships. Family. Connections. These are ideas I find myself reflecting on. The words written are just words and my thoughts are not categorized by these words, yet they are pervasive subjects which consume me. I often feel internally trapped by my thoughts. Most would say that relationships are external things. The way a relationship works is through external contact between myself and another person. Yet I’ve always struggled with this. I analyze and internalize everything. I have a hard time distinguishing between my thought world and what others actually know of me. As if everyone I know should somehow be able to read my mind. Yet I realize the absurdity of this, and I know no one really knows me the way I know myself, as I will never know anyone else as they know themselves. This thought is a constant source of loneliness for me.
My work this year has been a developing reflection of these ideas. Each piece seems to manifest itself as a mirror. Some mirrors reflect images of myself, others reflect the images I see within the relationships I have, the ones I don’t have, and the ones I long to have.
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